So I have a few hours to myself in the middle of the day now.
It is lovely. I'm not going to lie to you.
But it is also a frustration, because all during those hours, I am asking myself if I'm using my time wisely.
And when you ask yourself if you are using your time wisely, I can guarantee you will start to find fault with the way you are using your time. (Or is that just me?)
Those of you who have journeyed this way before, tell me: How do I manage this new schedule? I have to exercise during these hours because of my teaching hours. So there goes an hour, plus then I have to get ready, so there goes another half hour. And then I make breakfast and sometime in there I have to eat lunch too. And those are time suckers. And there's scripture study. And laundry. And doing the breakfast dishes (ok, and sometimes the dinner dishes, too.) And taking care of the dog. And then BLAMMO. My day is gone and the kids are home and I'm teaching piano again and then there's dinner and homework and my kids practice time and reading time and family scripture time and trying to figure out how to help this kid with this problem and my calling and AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!
I thought I'd get so much done. It's kind of sad. Will I get better at this? Or (as I suspect) worse? What has worked for you? Or if you haven't been there and done that yet and are fighting your daily mothering battles ALL DAY LONG ALL DAY LONG ALL DAY LONG (because I have definitely been there and done that!, are you at all screaming at your computer, "JUST ENJOY YOURSELF, YOU DUMB WOMAN! WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE FOR JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS"? I know. I totally know. I absolutely know.
2 comments:
Ha, you kill me. I think I'm in between the stage of having too little structure in the middle of the day and the stage of plenty of mothering demands. I totally see what you mean. I love reading your truths and I love that you've come back to writing, so thanks for contributing to my sanity.
I only have a half day with most of my children at school, but I'm finding the same thing---it flies. I totally haven't figured out how to make the routine work better for me. A couple of ideas that keep percolating are 1) I'm a mom and the role doesn't stop because they are at school for a little while, so I'm just doing my job. And 2) when I really want something to happen (like writing) I just have to say to heck to things, and squeeze it in. Otherwise there is never enough time.
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